Dear Me,
I know you are a hardworking and wise person. Always wanting to perfect everything you do and anything that you cannot perfect frustrates you. You’re over-empathetic and always want to be kind and concerned about others. Never want to hurt anyone’s feelings so you bottle up and walk-away.
But if you walk this path you are going to hurt yourself and create a bunch of regrets for yourself too. Being nice all the time only brings good but mountains of regrets and missed opportunities. I’m not asking you to go full-tornado on everyone you meet but rather be careful on whom you choose and what you choose to trust in life.
So here’s what I have to say that I can assure will help you get off this load of being responsible for everyone else.
First of all “focus on yourself”. Be selfish and be greedy for your dreams. And when I say this I do not ask you to starve yourself just to stay up extra late and complete an assignment or try to put on a one-person show just to save the day.
Instead, what I’m asking you is to set your long term goals. Know where you are headed, especially alone. I know your friends and family are surrounding you right now but build your own empire that doesn’t include anyone except you. It is okay to go after what you want as long as you’re not hurting someone and it is absolutely okay to fight for the things you are passionate about.
Play your violin, be immersed in it, dedicate yourself to it , because at the end of the road that is one thing that you will deeply regret not doing because of the fear of others.
Your studies, your job, your workout and everything is going to make you look good but your hobby is what is going to mould you. Leaving the art of playing the “Queen of Musical Instruments” is going to hit you bad. Playing the violin is a gift and you need to nurture it. Just take the load off your mind; that you have to learn it to play at church or to impress anyone. Play for the love of it and for the love of it alone. To hell with every other reason.
I know you will think that you are demanding too much from life. This life is like a delicious cake and it’s entirely yours. And it’s absolutely fine if you want to customise it, mould it, remould it and keep it all to yourself. Do not feel like you deserve less. Ever. You deserve the best in the world at every step of the way and it is your right, your duty to make sure that you get it. You have to be your own saviour darling. The only person who can save you. Is you.
And the only person who you can entirely trust to make your dreams come true is you. So use your gifts, be selfish, be wise, be kind and most importantly be smart to make the right decisions.
You will make it big one day.
Yours always and forever
Your future self
michellewritesart 